Boat trip.

Today we decided to join Paul on the boat and we went cruising with the whole family around lake Lanier. The weather was wonderful and the kids had a lot of fun. Me and Noah even jumped into water and swim around.  Everything was great until me and Noah had a little accident were we almost drown together. I know. What the heck? Well i was trying to swim with Noah from our boat into a beach (Paul said it was only 4 feet deep in a water but turned out to be more than that) and suddenly half way there, Noah started to panic and started to climb on me pulling me and himsef under water. I really got scared because i felt helpless. I can swim but i can't swim when it's deep and someone is desperately latching onto me. Noah had his swimmies on but for some reason he didn't feel too comfortable in a water. Thanks God i finally felt a ground underneath me because we would have never come above the water again. It was very SCARY and I will never enter the water with him without any type of swimming jacket. I guess i remembered last year, when me and Noah just swam around (Noah with his swimmies on) very comfortably in a deep water and he never pulled me down. This year he is much more scared of swimming than he was last year.  When i came out, my whole chest felt tight and I was shaking all over. I can't believe how close we were to something really tragic. The memories from Destin flashed back from almost 9 years ago, when me and Paul got caught in a rip current and almost drowned together. I was lucky enough that a sweet gentleman jumped into a water after me and brought me back. Minutes later i was taken by ambulance to the hospital and was told that a day earlier 14 people drowned in Florida with 7 of them trying to rescue the ones that were drowning. Since that time, i have not entered the ocean when the waves were rough. I only entered the super quiet bay in St. Thomas and it was only because the water was like glass. I am super scared of the ocean and now after my last weekend i will be careful around any body of water. In a matter of minutes things can get out of control, especially when it comes to nature.