On the Illusion of Individuality.

I woke up this morning not in my best mood. I have been kind of tired lately and training for the half-marathon is definitely catching up with me in the last several days. I just don't feel as strong as i would like to and on a top of this i have no time for myself whatsoever. As i felt sorry for myself, I thought about what Sadhguru had once said. I looked through the window and realized that today morning, the sun came up wonderfully. The planet is spinning on time. And not just this planet – every planet and satellite in this solar system is actually spinning on time. Everything happens on time and wonderfully well, not just in this solar system – everywhere in the universe. Sadhguru's words make so much sense. In the whole cosmos of these billions of galaxies, everything has been in order – it is a successful day. But just one lousy little thought is worming through my mind right now and I say, “This is a bad day.” Nothing bad has happened except my lousy thought and this lousy thought has become bigger than the whole cosmic exuberance of creation. This means that I am just too full of myself...

When some disastrous event happens in this cosmos I will have enough reason to be miserable but till then I have no reason. If there is any great disaster happening in the cosmic space then I can call it a lousy day. Right now, it is just one lousy thought worming through my brain because I am just so horribly identified with my own nonsense that I can miss a limitless cosmic space and be entangled in this one lousy thought that's going through my head. Sadhguru was right. I immediately started to feel better. I thought about how all things are connected to each other. Right now, Mother Earth sees me as just an outcrop of herself. When she decides, she will suck me back because she experiences me as a part of herself. Mother Earth is everything. She is water, air, earth, fire, and space and this is what I am. Thought is not unique to me either. If I could build a body, it is because the earth has a body. If I can have blood circulation, it is because the earth has its own circulations. If I have thoughts, so do the planets, the universe, and the creation. Sadhguru says that it is just that when we are too full of our own stuff, we don’t get to perceive the larger thought of the creation and the Creator. If there was no thought in the creation, how would you get it? This is some deep stuff but it makes a lot of sense to me. I think we are just a small manifestation in this creation. My thought separates me from the existence. It is my thought that makes me think I am a separate creation by myself.

Sadhguru says that actually, right now " as you sit here, everything in you is in interaction with everything else. It is only the shell of your thoughts and emotions that is making you think and believe that you are a separate entity. If you don’t understand this, just hold your breath for two minutes – you will know. Without interaction with this planet and its atmosphere, you cannot exist for a moment. And it is not just about this planet. Every subatomic particle in your system is in constant transaction with the whole existence, with the whole cosmos, with things that are and things that are not. There are dimensions of the atoms – the basic building blocks in your body – that are constantly transacting with the empty space; otherwise you cannot exist. So the shell is easy to break because it doesn’t really exist. The shell is an illusion that you have created. You are the working of this magnificent creation and the source of creation – but you build a shell and think you are a nut..." So if you do not get out of your shell, you are just a nut :)