Rapunzel.

I know this sounds funny but Noah loves the movie "Tangled" and it's main character Rapunzel and so do I :)He watches it over and over again and afterwards he wants us to play with the dolls I have collected for Leah. I am not concerned with him playing with dolls, princesses or castles, I just think it's funny and one day he will be really embarrassed by it :) LOL. That is why i had to take some pictures to prove it to him one day. Of course, Noah is a true boy's boy at heart. He loves his airplanes, pirates, dinosaurs, dragons and basically every character that is simply bad :) Last week me and Noah went to the movie and saw "The Lion King 3D" and afterwards I took Noah to Wallmart to buy him a little toy so he can have a memory of the movie. I was kind of hoping that he is going to choose a sweet, plush Simba but NO he went straight for the bad guy Scar. He didn't even want to hear about Simba or Mufassa. That's my boy! Now i really need to sleep. I have to stop going to bed at 1am!!!

Noah in his playroom with his dolls :)

Playing with Flynn Ryder :) He even took a bath with him the other day. LOL


We love Rapunzel!!!

Sweet 8 months old baby Leah.

So adorable!

Noah helping out his little sister.

And kissing on her :)



Soo sweet! I love catching moments like that. Pure joy!

On the Illusion of Individuality.

I woke up this morning not in my best mood. I have been kind of tired lately and training for the half-marathon is definitely catching up with me in the last several days. I just don't feel as strong as i would like to and on a top of this i have no time for myself whatsoever. As i felt sorry for myself, I thought about what Sadhguru had once said. I looked through the window and realized that today morning, the sun came up wonderfully. The planet is spinning on time. And not just this planet – every planet and satellite in this solar system is actually spinning on time. Everything happens on time and wonderfully well, not just in this solar system – everywhere in the universe. Sadhguru's words make so much sense. In the whole cosmos of these billions of galaxies, everything has been in order – it is a successful day. But just one lousy little thought is worming through my mind right now and I say, “This is a bad day.” Nothing bad has happened except my lousy thought and this lousy thought has become bigger than the whole cosmic exuberance of creation. This means that I am just too full of myself...

When some disastrous event happens in this cosmos I will have enough reason to be miserable but till then I have no reason. If there is any great disaster happening in the cosmic space then I can call it a lousy day. Right now, it is just one lousy thought worming through my brain because I am just so horribly identified with my own nonsense that I can miss a limitless cosmic space and be entangled in this one lousy thought that's going through my head. Sadhguru was right. I immediately started to feel better. I thought about how all things are connected to each other. Right now, Mother Earth sees me as just an outcrop of herself. When she decides, she will suck me back because she experiences me as a part of herself. Mother Earth is everything. She is water, air, earth, fire, and space and this is what I am. Thought is not unique to me either. If I could build a body, it is because the earth has a body. If I can have blood circulation, it is because the earth has its own circulations. If I have thoughts, so do the planets, the universe, and the creation. Sadhguru says that it is just that when we are too full of our own stuff, we don’t get to perceive the larger thought of the creation and the Creator. If there was no thought in the creation, how would you get it? This is some deep stuff but it makes a lot of sense to me. I think we are just a small manifestation in this creation. My thought separates me from the existence. It is my thought that makes me think I am a separate creation by myself.

Sadhguru says that actually, right now " as you sit here, everything in you is in interaction with everything else. It is only the shell of your thoughts and emotions that is making you think and believe that you are a separate entity. If you don’t understand this, just hold your breath for two minutes – you will know. Without interaction with this planet and its atmosphere, you cannot exist for a moment. And it is not just about this planet. Every subatomic particle in your system is in constant transaction with the whole existence, with the whole cosmos, with things that are and things that are not. There are dimensions of the atoms – the basic building blocks in your body – that are constantly transacting with the empty space; otherwise you cannot exist. So the shell is easy to break because it doesn’t really exist. The shell is an illusion that you have created. You are the working of this magnificent creation and the source of creation – but you build a shell and think you are a nut..." So if you do not get out of your shell, you are just a nut :)

More lensbaby fun!

"Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed.
In fact angels have no religion as we know it ...
their existence precedes every religious system
that has ever existed on earth."

St. Thomas Aquinas


My little angel.








Sweet, little dupka.

Flashback: Noah as an angel...

Noah was 16 months old at the time :)

Pulling up.

Can't believe Leah will be 8 months in just four days. Where did the time go? Not too long ago i just brought her home so small and vulnerable and now she is pulling up and crawling all over the place. She will be walking in no time... She has already 3 teeth with the fourth one just coming out (yeah so 4 teeth :) She loves to eat and she is still a great sleeper, going to bed at 8pm and getting up at 9am (just like Noah did). She says mama all the time and is very observant of her brother. She won't loose a sight of him even for a second. She is in total awe and admiration for Noah. Everything he does is funny for her (ignoring things that mommy does for fun :) I can't just win the competition with Noah so after many trials i just assumed a second position. It's just soo cool to watch the kids together. There is nothing better in this world than to see Noah kissing on Leah or guiding and protecting her around the room. I think that Noah really loves his little sister now :) He had some rough time with her before but he seems much calmer around her now. He also stopped acting up towards her as much. No more time outs for Noah :) Yeah!!! Noah also started to share his toys with Leah more willingly and he even invites her to play with him. I just overheard him the other day saying "baw baw Leah" :) Soo sweet. Of course Leah's idea of playing is to eat everything that he hands to her but eventually i can see both of them playing together :) And just a thought of this puts a big smile on my face.

Leah pulling up.


My little bobas.


Oh such a pretty butterfly. I love butterflies.

Leah's little dupka.

Soo precious and perfect.

Comparison of Noah's butt and Leah's butt, at almost 8 months both. Just how cute are they huh? I have to make a print of this :)

One in color.

Trampoline!

So we have a new trampoline in our yard! Hurray! I have been wanting to purchase a trampoline for Noah for a long time but they are very pricey, especially the bigger ones so i found one on Craigslist for only $50 and bought it. Paul was not really happy about it at first but after seeing Noah having so much fun jumping, he changed his mind. It was a great deal! I knew i can't NOT get it for Noah, especially that his birthday is coming up and i was planning to get him a new one anyway. The trampoline is in a great shape and ever since we bought it last weekend, it has been used every single day, many times a day. I know what my boy likes and i knew he would have a blast jumping. He is such a high energy kid that he needs a lot of physical exercise to calm himself down. Long story short, the trampoline was my best purchase so far this year. When me and Noah are not jumping on the trampoline, we just lay there rolling around, looking at the clouds and airplanes or we chase each other. It is SO MUCH FUN! Even baby Leah loves to crawl around it and jump with mama and her big brother. Everybody is happy. Last weekend after we have put the trampoline together, me and Noah decided to wash it and we had the best time EVER, just rolling around in a pool of soap and water. Noah couldn't be happier trying to soak me completely with a hose and he did a pretty good job (at the end i had a soap everywhere, hair included) :) Good Times!


Just playing around with my most favorite man in the world!

Can he be any cuter? I doubt it. Maybe cleaner but not cuter :)

Sweet baby Leah (7 months and 3 weeks old).


Noah eating a hot pepper from my garden thinking it's a tomato :) A second later, he burst into tears :)


Kids together...too bad u can't see Leah :) Moments later the car fell over and Leah got really scared :( No more pushing by a big brother...

Me and Noah trying out the trampoline for a first time :)

Noah jumping. Love the sun flare.



One happy boy!

The end result :) Time to wash it...

FUN FUN FUN

We both had such a blast (don't mind my pajamas:)


Noah had so much fun spraying me :)